crushxmebaby

Mon, 19 May 2008 21:26:29 GMT

ughhhhh
i'm so angry with myselfff.
i've fucked up this whole year until this quarter.
i now have good attendence & good grades.
so obviously i WAS capable of doing this the whole year.
but instead of going to school & doing my work,
i fucked around so now i have to wait two more years to go to a university :[

Sat, 17 May 2008 18:08:58 GMT

does anyone have an old at&t phone (or cingular) that they don't use anymoree?
cause my phone is fucked & i don't have $50 to buy a new one yet.
please please please i will highhhhly appreciate it! :] let me know.

Thu, 15 May 2008 22:00:28 GMT

night school is over,
4 days of school left,
& i'm done!
ahh it feels so fucking good.
:]
i made it!

Fri, 09 May 2008 23:42:33 GMT

& these!

Fri, 09 May 2008 22:23:17 GMT

lollll i was looking at erika's photobucket and found these. i miss these days@!

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 03:24:17 GMT

i fucking hate being grounded!
its making me go crazy!
i nnnnnnnnnneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to hang out with people before i dieee.
ahhhh
seriously
:(
&&&&& i still have like 3 fucking weeks.
goodbye life, hello satan.
ksjghasjdbgbsdioeuognbabd
someone pick me up from school, and chill with me alllllllllll day.
:)
tht would be the best day ever!
yeah.
so do it.
:]

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 01:51:56 GMT

damn,
this sucksssss.

ahhh.

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 21:05:55 GMT

this is really weird.
i know i still have like two years but after i graduate, i either stay here with my friends, start college and find somewhere to live or i move back to ohio with my parents and my little sister.
idk what to do.
i think this might be the biggest decision of my life, even though its still two years away pretty much..its just scary.
living on my own..wow.
any suggestions?

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 23:17:35 GMT

life as been pretty good latley, kinda.
i really want a boo :[
& i really cant wait till last damn showww!

this is the most random entry everr.

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 00:04:08 GMT

FUCKING NIGGER!!$^!$@*$(@$^!~~^0r(%@#*&$@$

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 13:09:14 GMT

yeah so, im getting ungrounded early.
but it doesnt really excite me.
i think i've pretty much lost touch with everyone :[

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 19:55:47 GMT

this summer has been pretty tighttttt. i didn't really get in any trouble :)

except last saturday i got grounded for 9 weeks, but friday night was worth it! hah.

well this entry is pointless, just like all my other ones :-/

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 02:46:20 GMT

birthday = tomorrow. 16 :]

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 19:05:26 GMT

i havent updated in a long time.

last night was realllllly fun.

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 18:41:50 GMT

this summer is BY FAR the craziest yett!

my day

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 00:42:39 GMT

so today after school me, erika,dominique, and paul went fishing and i caught my first fish ever! ahh it was amazing, i started screaming. hah :] but we threw it back in the water.

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 04:19:51 GMT

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say you that love me just to put in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you

Hate Me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
And in a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you.

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then he whispered “how can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you.

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 21:47:29 GMT

so yeah. i really like when my sister fucking goes behind my back and then lies to me about it. fuck this, im done with EVERYTHING.

p.s i'm waaayy too dramatic.

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 07:52:49 GMT

one, two...my mom ate your poo. Three, four...uhhhh i can't rhyme anymore. Five, six...no more suckin dick. Seven,eight...i like to hate. Nine, ten...im emo again.

hahahaha

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 19:48:30 GMT

I got a new kitten yesterday and i named her petunia. Two more days till christmas.
♥

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 21:57:09 GMT

this weekend was awesome. ♥ ♥

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 02:59:49 GMT

at natashas....gettin drunk like a motha fucka

gangsta as fuck

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 20:16:45 GMT

at erikas. Im so excited that we dont have school tomorrow. its awesome.this weekend was pretty fun. hopefully me and erika can think of something to do tonight. comment back if u wanna hang or suttin

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 23:53:26 GMT

this weekend was lots of fun.

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 20:45:36 GMT

Ok, so me erika and markie ate 5 pounds of cookie dough. i think i might loose 27 lbs from it. And i also got rejected today, and lied to. I'm very disapointed.